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WORM FOOD
02:50
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I'VE BEEN HAVING FUCKED UP DREAMS
I'VE BEEN SLEEPING ON MY BACK AND LIVING ON MY KNEES
JUST WISHING EVERY PIECE OF ME
WOULDN'T ALWAYS WANT TO CRUMBLE
WOULDN'T FALL APART SO EASILY
AND I WAS LIVING THROUGH MACHINES
UNTIL I FINALLY HAD ENOUGH
OF ALL THIS SELF DESTRUCTION AND DEFEAT
AND I DRIFTED SO PEACEFULLY
SO DON'T ASK ME WHERE I'M GOING
DON'T YOU DARE TO TRY TO FOLLOW ME
MAYBE YOU WERE THE CURE AND I, THE DISEASE
MAYBE YOU WERE THE CURE
WHEN YOU SEE ME, BABY PLEASE DON'T CRY
YOU CAN STAND ABOVE ME SHAKING
AND TELLING A BUNCH OF LIES
AND YOU CAN CALL ME OUT THIS ONE LAST TIME
AND YOU CAN SAY A COUPLE PRAYERS
PUT SOME QUARTERS ON MY EYES
UNFAMILIAR FACES AND BEST FRIENDS
CAN TELL YOU STORIES ABOUT THE NIGHTS
THAT WE ALL THOUGHT WOULD NEVER END
AND THEN YOU CAN LAY ME DOWN SIX FEET
AND YOU CAN LET THE WORMS TRY AND SEE IF THEY CAN FIND
SOME PEACE IN ME
I HAD A DREAM THAT WITH MY LAST BREATH
BABE, I WHISPERED IN YOUR EAR ALL THAT I HAD LEFT OF ME
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2. |
***** AND *****
03:23
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IT'S JUST THIS MOON THAT BRINGS IT OUT IN ME
IT'S THE SAME WHITE LIGHT THAT SET OVER ALL THAT WE ONCE WERE AND ALL THAT WE COULD'VE BEEN
IT'S JUST THESE CLOUDS AND THE STARS AND THE STREETS AND THE CARS THAT PASS BY I SWEAR TO GOD THEY ALWAYS REMIND ME
OF A SONG FROM THE FIRST TIME
IT'S JUST THAT LOOK IN THOSE EYES I CAN NEVER FORGET NO MATTER HOW I TRY, THEY JUST COME BACK WITH A VENGEANCE LIKE A CIRCLE PIT TWO-STEP
AND THE WORDS NEVER CAME IT WAS NEVER THE SAME AFTER SEDATED FLIRTATION I WAS JUST WASTED
SOMETIMES IT CUTS LIKE A RAZOR
I TRIED TO REMEMBER (WHEN) YOU REMEMBERED THE REASONS
I JUST COULDN'T RECALL
THE STRENGTH THAT I ONCE HAD THAT KEPT ME IN THAT BED
JUST TRYING TO FIX THE THINGS THAT WERE SO FAR BEYOND...
IT'S JUST THESE DARK NIGHTS THAT KEEP ME SO FAR FROM SLEEP AND I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING OTHER THAN ALL THE WHITE LIGHTS
I NEVER FELT SO ALIVE
SINCE THE DAY YOU WALKED OUT, DOORS OPENED LEFT AND RIGHT AND ALL THOSE QUIET TIMES TURNED INTO SCREAMING FIGHTS
I TRIED TO REMEMBER (WHEN) YOU REMEMBERED THE REASONS
I JUST COULDN'T RECALL
THE STRENGTH THAT I ONCE HAD THAT KEPT ME IN THAT BED
JUST TRYING TO FIX THE THINGS THAT WERE SO FAR BEYOND...
SO FAR BEYOND REPAIR
AND AT THE END OF ALL THOSE NIGHTS, I JUST WANTED TO WATCH YOU SHINE...JUST LIKE ***** AND *****
JUST LIKE ***** AND *****
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VIOLATED
02:52
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WAKING UP FROM THE WORST SLEEP, VIOLATED
YOU HAD INSISTED IT WAS THE SAME
AS IT WAS THOSE MONTHS THAT FLEW BY LIKE THE ASHES IN THE NIGHT SKY
FLOATING AWAY
MESSAGE YOU IN THE MORNING
I'M SURE YOU'RE SICK OF CHECKING AND BALANCING
SAME OLD LOST CAUSE
YOU HAD BEEN HIDING OUT IN THE WOODS
I WOULD NEVER HAVE KNOWN IF THEY DIDN'T FIND YOU BLEEDING THERE
AND OH, HOW IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING I DIDN'T NEED
A PILL OR A DOLLAR TO BUY ANOTHER DRINK
AND OH, HOW I THINK I JUST WANTED YOU TO LEAVE
AND GO SOMEWHERE, SOMEWHERE SO FAR AWAY FROM ME
GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE
I'VE GOTTA MAKE SOME ROOM
BRAND NEW BODY, THE SAME OLD TOMB
GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE
HAVEN'T YOU HEARD THE NEWS?
THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT ANYMORE FOR GHOSTS LIKE YOU
PULLING TEETH, FORGOING SEDATION
LETTING THE COTTON ABSORB ALL THE BLOOD THAT
CAME SPILLING OUT OF THE FACE I ONCE KNEW
KNOWING I MIGHT NOT MAKE PEACE WITH YOU
NO, MY HANDS ARE STILL BLOOD RED
IT'S NOT WASHING AWAY
GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE
I'VE GOTTA MAKE SOME ROOM
BRAND NEW BODY, THE SAME OLD TOMB
GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE
HAVEN'T YOU HEARD THE NEWS?
THERE'S NO SPACE LEFT ANYMORE FOR GHOSTS LIKE YOU
BUT IT WAS ALL JUST A DREAM
AND YOU WERE THERE AND YOU WERE THERE WITH ME
YEAH, IT WAS ALL JUST A DREAM
WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO FAR AWAY FROM ME?
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4. |
THE PATIENT
02:55
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I'LL HAVE A DOUBLE OF WHATEVER'S GONNA MAKE ME ADMIT
I COULD HAVE SWORN I TOLD YOU ALL ABOUT THAT DREAM WHEN I HAD IT
YOU SHOULD'VE SEEN YOUR FACE WHEN THE SKY LIT UP
IT WAS THE LAST TIME I KNEW WHEN ENOUGH WAS ENOUGH
WELL, I THOUGHT OF MAKING PEACE WITH ALL THESE DEMONS UNDERGROUND
BUT THEN WHO THE HELL WOULD I DO ALL THIS HANGING AROUND WITH IN SLEEP?
SCREAMS HIT ME LIKE A FIST TO THE FACE
BLOODY NOSES, BLACK EYES BEFORE THE CLOCK HAD THE CHANCE TO STRIKE A.M.
STAND, PATIENT
THE DOCTOR'S ON THE WAY TO TAKE A LOOK AT THEM HEADACHES
AND GIVE YOU A LITTLE SOMETHING JUST TO HELP WITH THE SHAKING
CAN YOU PUT A NUMBER ON THE DAYS YOU WENT WITHOUT
SOMETHING THAT YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO LIE TO EVERYONE ABOUT?
SIT AND WAIT FOR YOUR TURN, BEAUTIFUL
WE ALL BURN
SOMEDAY SOMEDAY SOMEDAY WE WON'T WISH IT AWAY
SOMEDAY SOMEDAY SOMEDAY WE'LL WAKE UP IN THAT PLACE
FOR THE LIFE OF ME I CAN'T REMEMBER THE DAYS
WHEN OUR DREAMS WEREN'T ALL FILLED WITH THESE SPIDERS AND SNAKES
AND THESE POCKETS WEREN'T EMPTY AS SHIT
AND WE STILL HAD THE SENSE TO MAKE SENSE OF ALL THIS
BUT THESE LONG NIGHTS WILL HELP US REMEMBER A WORLD
THAT WE ALL LIVED IN WHEN WE WERE JUST BOYS AND GIRLS
WHEN THE HOURS DIDN'T SEEM SO LONG
AND THE RIGHTS SEEMED TO OUTWEIGH THE POISONOUS WRONGS IN THE WORDS THAT WE FOUND ON OUR ONCE RIPE TONGUES
STAND
SOMEDAY SOMEDAY SOMEDAY WE WON'T WISH IT AWAY
SOMEDAY SOMEDAY SOMEDAY WE'LL WAKE UP IN THAT PLACE
AND WE'LL FIND ANOTHER WAY
AND WE'LL SLEEP THROUGH THE DARKEST DAYS
AND WE'LL DIG AND WE'LL FIND ALL THE TRUTH THAT WE NEED UNDER GRAVES
THAT WE'LL FIND OUT TOO LATE HAVE BEEN ETCHED WITH OUR OWN NAMES
STAND
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5. |
IF AND WHEN
03:19
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I DRANK ALONE THE NIGHT AFTER I QUIT THINKING OF HOME
AND HOW EASY WE HAD IT EVEN THOUGH WE LIVED OFF CRUMBS AND HALF-SMOKED CIGARETTES
THE HOLES IN THE WALLS ENCOMPASSED ALL WE'D EVER HOLD
AND I LOOKED TO FIND THE THINGS THAT I'D BEEN MISSING ALL THESE NIGHTS SLIP AWAY FROM US SO FAST IT FEELS JUST LIKE
WE LOST IT, FOUND IT, THEN LOST IT ONE LAST TIME
AND NOW WE JUST ACCEPT WHAT'S IN FRONT OF OUR EYES
AND I MISS IT ALL
BUT SOMETIMES IT'S GOOD TO KNOW THAT IT'S ALL GONE
REALIZING THAT THE YEARS KEEP TRUCKING ON
AND ALL THAT CAME BEFORE AND SINCE IS SURE TO FALL
I TRIED LIKE HELL, DARLING
I GAMBLED AND I LOST
SMOKED IN THE RAIN AND THOUGHT ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD LOVE THIS DAY AND EVERY SINGLE DROP
THE THUNDERING WOULD MAKE YOU WANT TO STAY INSIDE FOR HOURS AND PRAY THAT WE'D NEVER EVER HAVE TO LEAVE THIS PLACE
AND I MISS IT ALL
BUT SOMETIMES IT'S GOOD TO KNOW THAT IT'S ALL GONE
REALIZING THAT THE YEARS KEEP TRUCKING ON
AND ALL THAT CAME BEFORE AND SINCE IS SURE TO FALL
I TRIED LIKE HELL, DARLING
I GAMBLED AND I LOST
IF AND WHEN I FIND SOME LIFE IN ME, I SWEAR I'LL MAKE THE DRIVE
IF AND WHEN I EVER FIND THE TIME
AND I MISS IT ALL
BUT SOMETIMES IT'S GOOD TO KNOW THAT IT'S ALL GONE
REALIZING THAT THE YEARS KEEP TRUCKING ON
AND ALL THAT CAME BEFORE AND SINCE IS SURE TO FALL
I TRIED LIKE HELL, DARLING
I GAMBLED AND I LOST
I LOST IT ALL THIS TIME
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PHILLIP'S HEAD
02:44
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SHE HAD FLOWERS UP HER ARM
BET IT HURT LIKE HELL
FIVE HOURS IN A CHAIR THAT NIGHT
HADN'T SEEN HER IN A WHILE
BUT I'LL NEVER FORGET
WHEN THE LIGHTS WERE OFF AND THOSE EYES CLOSED TIGHT
I GUESS IT'S BEEN A YEAR OR SO
SINCE THE LAST TIME WE SAID HELLO TO EACH OTHER
WE SHOULD PROBABLY GET A DRINK
OR JUST GET OUR SHIT TOGETHER
MAKE A NIGHT OUT OF OUR LOST HOPE
AND I WAS PHILLIP'S HEAD ALL NIGHT
LOOKING 'ROUND FOR A BOTTLE THAT WAS OUT OF SIGHT
NOTHIN' DOIN' NOTHING BETTER OUTSIDE
I PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE ASKED WHAT WAS ON HER MIND
AND I GUESS THAT I'LL NEVER KNOW
WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN IF I DIDN'T STAY HOME DRINKING SOLO
PLAYING OUT WHAT IFS AND SHOULDA COULDA WOULDAS
'TIL THE GODDAMNED COWS CAME HOME
SOMETIMES I WONDER IF WE'LL MEET AGAIN
BETTER OR WORSE, I GUESS THE TIME WILL TELL MY FRIEND
BUT TONIGHT I WAS JUST THINKING OF YOU, CIGARETTES, SCREWDRIVERS, AND A NEW TATTOO
AND I WAS WISHING THAT I HAD THE GUTS TO LEAVE THIS ROOM
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7. |
LA QUINTA
03:09
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FAUX HARDWOOD FLOORS, FRESH YELLOW PAINT
CURVE LEFT AND RIGHT TO LEAD THE WAY
CLEAN SWIMMING POOL, HARDLY A LEAF
WHAT DOES THIS CITY HOLD FOR ME?
THE CHERRY BLOSSOMS FALL LIKE RAIN
AN AMBER LAGER NUMBS MY BRAIN
AND WE LAID CLOSE BENEATH THE SHEETS
BEFORE WE TREAD UPON THOSE STREETS
I SMOKED A THOUSAND CIGARETTES TRYING TO REMEMBER HOW WE MADE IT HOME FROM HERE THE LAST TIME WE LEFT
THOSE EMPTY THROATS, FAMOUS LAST WORDS
"NOTHING SPOKEN, NOTHING HEARD"
AND I JUST LOOKED DOWN AT MY SHOES
I NEED SOME NEW ONES, NEED SOME TRUTH
FIVE BLOCKS AWAY FROM ALL THOSE FACES
I DON'T NEED TO KNOW THEIR NAMES
AND WE JUST LAID THERE INNOCENT
BEFORE WE SAT OUT ON THAT TRIP
AND THREE FLOORS DOWN, THERE IS A STREET
THAT HOLDS NO COMFORT JUST THE MEMORIES OF LEAVING EVERYTHING
WHAT DOES THIS CITY HOLD FOR ME?
FOUR HOUR DRIVE, WE CAME BACK HOME
WITH HANGOVERS AND DIRTY CLOTHES
THESE WEEKENDS KILL WHAT LITTLE TIME
WE FEEL WE HAVE LEFT IN OUR MINDS
THESE METAPHORS AND SOUVENIRS
WILL HAUNT THE WALLS AND WASTED YEARS
AND I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER KNOW
JUST WHAT THAT CITY HAD IN STORE
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8. |
RED THROAT
02:58
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THERE WAS NOTHING THAT I COULD'VE SAID
JUST A FEELING I HAD THAT NIGHT
AND IT HURT JUST LIKE A DRY HEAVE FIT
NO, NOTHING EVER CAME OF IT
A RED THROAT AND THE DAMAGE DONE
SUN SET, STARS LIT LIKE THE FOURTH OF JULY
TOOK ME BACK TO ALL OF THOSE TIMES
WHEN WE BOTH LOVED ALL THE SAME LINES
NOW THOSE DAYS, THEY JUST WAVE GOODBYE
EMPTYING MY MIND SOMEHOW
INCHING TOWARDS FADING NOW
JUST LIKE ALL YOUR TATTOOS
AND ALL THOSE ANCIENT TENDER MOMENTS
WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG
AND I WAS BROKEN, SO MANY PIECES
I NEVER PICKED MY SELF UP
FROM THE SCRAPS OF WHAT I USED TO BE
DISREGARD ALL OF THOSE MISSTEPS, BABY
THEY WON'T BRING YOU PEACE
THEY NEVER WILL
AND NOW THE BLACK TURNS INTO BLUE
IT MAKES ME REMEMBER YOU
AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO PUT THIS ASIDE
LIKE LOVE LETTERS FULL OF LIES
THE ONES THAT COME TO ME IN DREAMS AT NIGHT
JUST LIKE ALL YOUR TATTOOS
AND ALL THOSE ANCIENT TENDER MOMENTS
WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG
AND I WAS BROKEN, SO MANY PIECES
I NEVER PICKED MY SELF UP
FROM THE SCRAPS OF WHAT I USED TO BE
DISREGARD ALL OF THOSE MISSTEPS, BABY
THEY WON'T BRING YOU PEACE
THEY NEVER WILL
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9. |
BRAND NEW HEART
02:08
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I GOT A LETTER IN THE MAIL SIX YEARS TOO LATE
SEALED WITH A BAD KISS, RIDDLED WITH MISTAKES
AND EVEN THOUGH IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN SIGNED IN YOUR BLOOD
I KNEW YOU COULDN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO GIVE ENOUGH
I'VE GOT A PICTURE ON THE WALL OF A HAPPY LIFE
AND A BOTTLE IN MY HANDS AS I SLEEP TONIGHT
AND IF YOU EVER NEED ME THERE, I GUESS THAT'D BE ALRIGHT
BUT DON'T EXPECT A REASON WHY I'M KILLING THIS TIME
I GOT A DEVIL IN A DRESS PUTTING ME TO SLEEP
WITH A PILLOW ON MY FACE, BURIED UP TO MY KNEES
KILLS THE LONGEST MILES WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT
AND SHE'S GOT A NOOSE AS TIGHT AS YOU NEED TONIGHT
I GOT A COUPLE DOZEN PILLS SPELLING OUT YOUR NAME
AND A SONG IN MY HEAD THAT YOU ALWAYS HATED
SEVEN DOLLARS LEFT
NOT A GODDAMNED THING TO SAY
I NEED TO PAINT THIS SMILE JUST RIGHT
I NEED TO CARVE OUT A BRAND NEW HEART
I NEED TO WAKE THE FUCK UP OR GO BACK TO SLEEP
I NEED TO QUIT OR GO BACK TO THE START
I NEED TO FIND AND EXCUSE, BUT WHATEVER I DO
I GOTTA STOP FINDING YOU IN THE DARK
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10. |
KITCHEN LIGHTS
02:50
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I'M JUST HOPING YOU GET SO DRUNK THAT YOU FORGET
THE WORDS I SPOUTED OFF WHEN I WAS
A LITTLE TOO DEEP INTO THE BOTTLE THAT NIGHT
I SAID YOU LOOKED SO PRETTY UNDER KITCHEN LIGHTS
I'VE GOT A WAY OF SAYING TOO MUCH AT THE WRONG TIMES
AND NOTHING WHEN IT REALLY MATTERS
I LET IT GO LIKE IT WAS HARD TO HOLD
THE TRUTH CAME OUT UNDER THE KITCHEN LIGHTS
THE YELLOW GLOW, FLUORESCENT HUM
CAME RIGHT OFF THE TIP OF MY TONGUE
SHADOWS FELL LIKE ANGELS, HELL
I GUESS I FELT LIKE I WAS YOUNG
I HOPE WE NEVER SPEAK OF THIS AGAIN
JUST KEEP IT LIKE A SECRET UNTIL
THE STARS ALIGN OR WE BOTH FIND
A REASON TO CONFESS UNDER THE KITCHEN LIGHTS
IT JUST GETS SO HARD TO KEEP QUIET SOMETIMES
IT GETS SO HARD TO KEEP SAYING GOODBYE
SEEMED SO IRRELEVANT THAT NIGHT
WHEN I LOST MYSELF UNDER THE KITCHEN LIGHTS
THE YELLOW GLOW, FLUORESCENT HUM
CAME RIGHT OFF THE TIP OF MY TONGUE
SHADOWS FELL LIKE ANGELS, HELL
I GUESS I FELT LIKE I WAS YOUNG AGAIN
BACK IN THE HALLWAY
THINGS FELT THE SAME
AS THEY DID SO MANY MANY YEARS AGO
THEY SAY TRUTH COMES
WITH A LOOSE TONGUE
BUT SOMETIMES I GUESS IT'S BETTER NOT TO KNOW
UNDER THE YELLOW GLOW OF THE KITCHEN LIGHTS
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11. |
ANTE MERIDIEM
03:15
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I HOPE THIS WEATHER HOLDS UNTIL THE PILLS KICK IN
LONGING FOR SOMETHING DIFFERENT
'CAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP AND I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND ANYTHING LEFT IN ME
I'M WIDE AWAKE AT THREE A.M.
MY MOUTH IS BREAKING DOWN AGAIN
I'VE GOT NOTHING LEFT TO SAY TO THEM
I HOPE THE MOON HANGS PROUD, BLOOD RED TONIGHT
THERE'S NOT A CLOUD LEFT IN THIS SKY
JUST CONSTELLATIONS MAKING PLANS OF LEAVING TOWN
AND COMING BACK AGAIN
I THINK THE YEARS ARE PLAYING GAMES
BREAKING THE RULES, BRINGING UP NAMES
I'VE GOT NOTHING LEFT TO SAY
I CLOSE MY EYES
WHEN THE WIND IS COLD
IMAGINE I
ONCE YEARS AGO
FLEW FAR AWAY
AND FOUND A NEW HOME
IN A PLACE WHERE I
HAD NEVER KNOWN
ANY OF THIS
IT HURTS TO BREATHE...
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